Sunday, December 19, 2010

‘Cause You Gotta Have Faith


So I wrote this the same day that Jon contacted my parents to ask to "meet" with them.  I had NO idea he was planning to ask them for their blessing to ask me to marry him!  God continues to amaze me!!


                                  Faith                                 11-01-10

When I step back from everything that’s happened in the past three months, I’m pretty embarrassed by the lack of faith that I’ve given God.  For those of you who don’t know, I moved out to Santa Maria, California (central coast) the end of July to be closer a pretty amazing person and things couldn’t have worked out any better.  Before moving out here, I worried about where I would live.  And when I worry... I worry!  Rent is pretty expensive in California and finding a decent place in a decent part of town takes some time.  I did find a great place renting a granny house (an attached but separate apartment to a main house) from one of the kindest people I’ve ever met.  Thank you Lord!
I spent the first month worrying about finding a job.  California is bankrupt, so money for teachers was severely cut.  The public schools now have about half the staff they did two years ago.  I put my resume out to just about all the public and private schools in an hour’s radius.  And again, God blessed me with more than I could ask for.  I was hired on August 31 to work for the best public school district in Santa Maria. 
Since moving out here, I have felt completely out of my element and not myself at all.  I have spent way too much time worrying and not enough time relying on God.  Every day God takes care of me better than I could ever take care of myself.  And every day reaffirms my decision of moving closer to that special someone who is dedicated to God.  Who makes me laugh more than anyone I’ve ever met.  Who can do anything…yep anything.  Who makes me think about things from a different point of view; which I have a hard time doing.  And I get to be with him.  Again, God has proven to me just how awesome he is. 

Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
Isaiah 41:10